I had a dark moment today...

[This is a post I'm kinda using to vent]

I'm not afraid to admit it; I got a little depressed today.

It happened during my Chemistry Lab, or rather, afterwards.

I'll let you in on another secret of mine: I sweat...A LOT! So much so, that it fogs up my lab goggles, and no anti-fogger or vents are going to stop it. This causes me to have to leave the lab and wipe my glasses and forehead...every...five...MINUTES! This slowly puts behind other people, and I get discouraged.

...not to mention the fricken gloves we have to wear. And then you have to wash everything. Ugh, it all put me off.

And the other students were finished before me. Some even talked of career fairs they had gone to.

And then on the way back to my dorm, I began growing angry and depressed. The fact that I have to write a lab report. My probably poor lab results...it began to consume me.

I began to question if this is what I really wanted to do for the rest of college, or as a career. Was Chemistry my calling? Is the life of a chemist this stressful? Could I live with all of this stress? Should I have just listened to my choir teacher and gone into music?

And then on the bus, it hit me like a bus (herp derp, c what i did thur?) and I smiled. Why was I so worried? The lab report was due in a week. I got to finish the lab, even with all of my stress. The grade on the report wasn't as bad as I though it would be. Everything, really, was just fine. Not to mention I hadn't eaten a big breakfast or drank anything in hours. I believe this helped darken my thinking. You'd be surprised what a good meal can do to your mood.

Is Chemistry my calling? I do love the sciences, with a little mathematics thrown in, but did I make the right choice? I dunno, and I've got a year and a half to think about it, before things really start picking up.

Remember folks, when life's got you down, take a step back, breathe, and think. It's not so bad, is it?

P.S. THEN I HAD "I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO BE KING" STUCK IN MY HEAD, REPLAYING OVER AND OVER. OH THE AGONY.

And that was my day.